i am so so fucking lucky to be able to create to make art and exist. i see everything with beauty when i make art i know its stupid but i really am so happy im able to do this
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7:44 PM
work genuinely feels like going to sleep. its like i black out. is this normal?
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8:22 PM
i wanna dye my hair cjange my name and run away where no one knows who i am
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11:38 PM
its like i have this disgustingly beautiful thing inside me, its so beautiful i cant even fucking begin to describe how wonderful it is, it feels like home. like me. like familiarity and its fucking clawing and scratching trying to break free of my skin and be out in the world
i have so many ideas and a lot of them are still unfinished.... augh.
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2:36 AM
i should make an image page of sorts. i want to show you all my world.
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06/26/2025
11:14 PM
sharing music on the internet with ones you love is what its all about
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07/01/2025
10:07 PM
im gonna fucking sob im experincing so much sonder and loneliness i wish i was this broken as a teenager in the 2000s or thr 90s or 80s like ik its so stupid to say that like i wish i was born back then being queer but. god the media. the world. i feel so connected to it and i wish i could experince it. i think i just crave experiences. i wish i could live through every era of existence. i crave to experience all to see all to make all. i want. i crave.
